Evanescent -- Word for the Day -- Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Evanescent

Definition: Tending to vanish like vapor

Been kinda quite this week with my man gone. I have enjoyed the silence and independence, but I don't like the silence and the independence. Doesn't make sense, does it? This trip has been the worse one, but the best one. He knows his limits and has been coming in after dinner and enjoying his quite study time. That helps me, too.

This is the last week where he will be off meds. He thinks his shots are evanescent in that he has some reactions. His face is bloated, his cheeks are splotched and his eyes have been burning and red. He claims it is because he is off the steroids. I have tried to refresh his memory that he had that problem before cancer came along. Why does he then look at me like 'don't I know that cancer is the reason for everything?'

We have talked each night. Last night for 45 min and tonight for 40. He is loving his room. He is right on the ocean and has a balcony with a small patio. He forgot and left the door open all night and slept like a baby. When he got out of the shower this morning he saw something white fly by. He went to the balcony and there sat two seagulls on the next balcony waiting for food. He figured he better shut his door.. ha

The meeting he is attending is the 2010 KickOff... and to reward for 2009. Last year he got seven awards and this year it was four... The best ones though. He loves that work and the people.

I think I saw an email already that he has work going on Saturday.

He told me a story about one of his Infusion nurses. She has a five year old grandson. He was suspended from school with a friend of his.... Mooning!!! Somehow it didn't seem to be his fault! ha

Labs went very well and the crap stayed down real good. He is still gaining more weight that we can handle, but I truly believe when we get back on those bikes we can sweat it out. I'm just sayin..

I look at him and see him asleep or working on his computer, or eating, or just sitting and daydreaming. He has changed in so many ways physically. He looks older but not haggard. Then when I look real deep I stiill see my man in there. Especially when he looks over at me and I see the twinkle in his eys.

Work, for me, has been going quite well. I feel I can finally do what I was hired to do. No hurdles. I hear a new pastor will be in in a couple of months. That will be a trying time for me, then.

Our son has been so good to us lately. With the bad weather and such. He even took time out of his Sunday, while we were in church to come over and do a big project for us. The bad part is we didn't notice it for a week. I thought ChemoSabe did it and he thought I did it... Then we looked at each other and laughed..when we realized who really did it.

We start back on the Dex and Velcade next week. I did his survey this week. You have to answer a series of questions about your sex life, can you get pregnant, have you shared your meds, blah, blah, blah. That's every month. Then when the order is ready they call you and you have to do the same survey again. BUT, they then ship it overnight next day delivery, FREE!

Boys are in the bed and I wouldn't have been up this late if ChemoSabe hadn't needed me.. So I'm headin for the hills.

Sleep Tight and Love -- Pepper